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With up comes down...
Posted on Nov 5th, 2009
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[Grimm]
[Grimm]
Greetings,
Along side the amazing experience I have been having recently, some not so amazing experiences have occured. I have been spending a lot of time getting to know my painbody and the various triggers and forms it takes to manifest itself in my experience, and through such reflection I have strengthened my dis-association with it. Of course, this has also led to a detatchment with my ego or "maya" as I like to call it sometimes. This detatchment has literally flipped my 'perception' upside-down.
How I percieve other people has changed. Its very much like in the movie "surrogates" that has just came out. Everyone is phony to me. Its like I am in EVERYONE else's dream, and no matter what i try to DO... I cannot wake them up. The real issue I am having is that such a realization brings with it at times serene clarity of the nature of humanity, but also it is in itself a 'trigger' for my own 'maya'.
Needless to say, the last few days have been very interesting and have been quite the roller coaster ride. I intend to remain present and aware of my 'maya', so that I can better create and share my sublime experiences!
Namaste
Along side the amazing experience I have been having recently, some not so amazing experiences have occured. I have been spending a lot of time getting to know my painbody and the various triggers and forms it takes to manifest itself in my experience, and through such reflection I have strengthened my dis-association with it. Of course, this has also led to a detatchment with my ego or "maya" as I like to call it sometimes. This detatchment has literally flipped my 'perception' upside-down.
How I percieve other people has changed. Its very much like in the movie "surrogates" that has just came out. Everyone is phony to me. Its like I am in EVERYONE else's dream, and no matter what i try to DO... I cannot wake them up. The real issue I am having is that such a realization brings with it at times serene clarity of the nature of humanity, but also it is in itself a 'trigger' for my own 'maya'.
Needless to say, the last few days have been very interesting and have been quite the roller coaster ride. I intend to remain present and aware of my 'maya', so that I can better create and share my sublime experiences!
Namaste
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Dear: Grimm<3
I think its beautiful that you recognize what is going on here, the “maya” is trying to set up limitations for you. The thing is, you have caught on to its game and wish not to play anymore. The more you “catch it” and “see it” the less of a chance the “maya” will have to resurface itself again. Releasing yourself from your pain bodies, I believe is this “abnormal” transition you are currently experiencing/feeling. Could the thought of everyone being “phony” be your “maya” knowing you have caught on???? You are now identifying what is real to you, this will help you on your path to freedom!
(we have to experience who we are NOT, to truely experience who we ARE) Relationships with yourself and others will come togther, just breathe
I love you<3
Namaste
-Beauy<3
xoxox
Oh, Ryan. You and Tabitha are quite the team and both seem to be gifted with inner sight and able to see the world in all its glorious beauty and when it comes to our world not-so-awsome side, you are sweetly accepting and understanding :)
Hugs for both of you.
Amy :)